The current phrase 'release from lockdown' truly redefines the term 'grey area' for me. I have a list as long as my arm of requirements to be met before a church gathering can safely take place and, whilst these giudelines are necessary to ensure public safety, they add to the general sense of uncertainty about the future, akin to some sort of soporific floating experience.
Recently our 'super fast' broadband went super slow and then decided to take a complete rest for several hours leaving several members of my family screaming at their screens and then at me for choosing 'such a poor internet provider'. Being technically minded I switched it all off and then on again but to no avail. What to do? I'm not sure. In fact I'd say that applies to quite a number of things.
I am reminded of my teaching days and a lesson with a bar magnet and a pocket compass. Line the magnet up along the earth's North-South and then gradually move the compass away from the magnet's north pole. There will be a place where the compass goes limp and doesnt know which way to point; it's as if it's in two minds about the correct direction to follow. I know that feeling.
Do you remember multiple choice tests? There were too many possible answers weren't there?! Wouldn't it be good if life was like 'Who wants to be a Millionaire' and you could take away 2 wrong answers (although taking away all the wrong answers would be even better of course!) However, God doesn't seem to do that but He does give some good advice instead: 'Be anxious for nothing. Let your requests be known to Me. And My peace, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your heart and your mind.' (Phil 4, my paraphrase)
God doesn't call us to have a handle on everything. Instead He calls us to know Him and develop our spiritual health rather than focusing too much on an intellectual understanding of our circumstances. In fact, I think there's rather too much emphasis on being 'in the know' these days. So, don't be anxious. Have some faith. Because, 'faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen'. (Hebrews 11:1)